Wednesday
After work went to jurong to wait for jol to off work lo.... aft tt we went to enquiry for course details.... i am going to study... hee~ part time de laz.....
den aft tt we went bk to my hse lo.... had dinner .... den chat chat den watch tv nor... she went home at around 10+... den i bath le... went to bath liaoz....
ThursdayOn MC today..... my ears got infection.... feel so painful and itchy.... hais! cant hear anything frm my right ears..... wad happen.... i am worreid.... sob sobx....... apply ear drop le..... still feel so uncomfortable de..... hais....
wei zhen is at the k k hospital.... due to ears painful and fever also... hais ke lian ... hugs her.. hope she gets well real soon.....
waited for my bf to come bk home..... 2+ in the morning den reach my hse... i am feeling damn tired le.... den still end up quarreling till 3+ den i got to go into my room and rest.... didnt get to slp at all... feel so heartpain... so disappointed.... given up hope le... hais!
i dunno why i didnt shed a tears at all.... but inside mi... it's bleeding..... why in one hand he tell mi he loves mi and is haf planning for our future.... yet in another hand he lies to mi.... again and again... i forgive him.... trust him coz he asked mi to... despite all things tt he done.... yet i get tis in the end.....
y u always tk ppl and things for granted... i treat u nt gd enuff is it... i listen to everything u said.... tried to gib u e best... mk u hapi... wanna sweet sweet.... yet all the romantic, sweet wording and love is not to mi! cant i compare to them.... we been together for nearly 2 yrs le.... do u reali wan our relationship to go down the drain.......
hais hais hais .............
i jux wan to gain a good and proper relationship... is it tt hard????
how many will abide to the word 'Faithfulness'..
hard to seek true love as yet cos outside temptations is too much....
why cant god be fair to mi!!!!
i don deserve all tis!






i look so fat in tis pic... arhx!!!