saturday 060107
went to see ye ye at the hospital..... feel so heart pain seeing him feel so xin ku.... haix..... went to bugis for dinner with dear then shop awhile........ 9+ meet up with betty.... went to Paulaner Munchen to chill..... its a nice chill out place with r n b and live band...... order their in house own brew german beer..... dont quite like the taste...as i dont take beer de........ 12+ went back to the hospital to sleep.... pei yiyi and ye ye.... and help out incase....... hmmz.... 5+ went to dear hse......
sunday 070107
its the worst patch of my life........ something i feel missing.... in my life..... never ate anything for the whole day........... feel so horrible..... lying on the bed and thinking of so many thing.......... why cant i be stronger???? Why does my tears keep flowing....... i dont meant to make you all worried..... but i simply cant..... control myself......... tears is flowing like water tap.... no matter where i am and what i do..... saw ya backview going...... saw you going inside the car..... saw ya going off.... its too much for me to take.......... i am missing you badly..... all alone at home till around 9+.... family member all came back frm the hospital..... mummy keep crying.... told me she is so worried and scare..... heart so pain to see ye ye in pain..... mummy said ye ye heart vein got block..... might need an operation.......... sobxxx...... he's been in the hospital for 8 days le.... 24 hrs for 8 days been lying on the bed...... doctor told us its hard for him to get up and walk le..... might be bedridden..... haix.... oh my why is all this happening?????????? ah ma came over and pei mi sleep..... long time didnt hug her le..... tears keep flowing while on the bed........ simply cant slp... been tossing around..... then at 1+am..... ah ma fell down infront of my bed..... cause she get up to the toilet...... its too dark... she tripped.... feel so sorry for not taking good care of her..... must be real painful for her cause she cant get up.... i need to wake mummy up... cause i cant carry her up... haix....
know that you are sick... just hope you get well real soon.... take good care of yourself cause i can no longer take care of you..........
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